Wyco Wednesday October 28
BLEEP BLOOPS IN BLACK, UPDATES IN BLUE, COUPONS/GIVES IN RED
Days since anything written by AI: All of them. All of the days.
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Happy (early) Halloween, mush pumpkins!
Biiiig big music guy here. I love live music of all kinds and enjoy jamming out to recorded sets of my favorite artists while working. Sometimes, an artist will start or end a set by saying something along the lines of “we couldn’t do this without all the support from you guys!”. Sometimes you can tell it’s genuine and emotional, and other times it seems like more of a formality from saying it time and time again. But from the bottom of my heart with tears in my eyes, I deeply appreciate the encouragement and support and wouldn’t be able to live a life I never thought possible without all the love from this community. Because of all of you, I’ve been able to turn my most passionate and intricate hobby into a way to make a living, and I truly cannot express the appreciation I have for all who are involved in this mission. Every single cup I own runneth over and I am immensely grateful for this opportunity to share and serve with such a wonderful group of humans.
Whenever I doubt myself, get off track or feel discouraged, someone just so happens to drop in and straighten me out with words of kindness and motivation. I am incredibly blessed to have so many amazing people in my corner sharing their excitement with me and just being a genuine friend when I need it the most. Like the mycelial web, we all look out for each other and are quick to send the right nutrients when and where it’s needed most. I get to work with some of the most thoughtful and caring people on the planet and make connections that run through past and future lives. Living the dream is an understatement.
These are sentiments I have felt authentically from the jump, but especially so during this relocation recently. You all never cease to amaze me with the amount of love you whoosh my way! I can’t say I’m anywhere near full force in the flow state yet, but the teeth in that first gear have latched and set this whole operation in motion. I’ve been balancing the regular work load while slowly but surely getting the pieces together to make this truly awesome. The vision is clear and by the grace of the myco gods, let it be known it is GLORIOUS!
Being vulnerable and open about setbacks and limitations is rather uncomfortable for me in the moment, but gets easier to express with a little distance sooo here goes it! I was in a bit of a funk for what seems like all of 2026 leading up to pretty much now. I wouldn’t dare say the funk has been extinguished forever…that would not be human. But I did feel like I was on a constant grind without gaining any ground toward the vision I desired. Or rather, the vision was cloudy and unseen.
I had a vague idea of how I wanted things to be, but certain life circumstances seemed to take hold preventing me from pushing through at times. I struggled with a deep depression that I couldn’t seem to shake, starting with the suicide of my best friend and continuing through botched relationships of those I held near and dear to my heart. Everything during this time felt so difficult and near impossible at times. I didn’t feel like my heart and energy were in the right place to do myco work most of the time, and some things started falling behind, further deepening the hole I was in. I felt like there was a dark cloud lingering in my soul and I didn’t know if it would ever go away no matter what methods I tried. I was feeling more discouraged than ever before, feeling like I’m not making the most of this wonderful opportunity in front of me to serve others and share my passion in mycology.
Through the combination of a (very difficult) move, a complete restructure of my workflow, immense support from the community and close friends, and countless magical nuggets presented to me by the universe, I feel a weight has been lifted and I can finally breathe again. My spirituality is revamped, my focus is absolutely on point, and I’m more passionate and excited than I’ve ever been before. In so many ways, this has felt like the first time that I have moved, even being well into the double digits in my adult life. My creativity, motivation and enthusiasm are at a high and still very much on the rise. I feel like I have regained my life as a whole and have been set free from whatever wrath had control of me for so long. It’s only me over here, so everyone along on this journey is somewhat affected by my personal life as well. Occasionally there may be a delay due to…say, a water main break at the new house, or unexpected physical limitations due to overexertion paired with an excess of salt from a recent baked potato addiction (oops).
I say it’s only me, because I’m the one running the show, but the only reason any of this is even remotely possible is because of you, the MW collective. I started this whole gig with a small list of landrace genetics. That’s my SHIT! I have a deep spiritual connection with most of the landraces. They always give me exactly what I need, even when I don’t realize I need it. They keep me grounded and ethereal at the same time. But I’ve been extremely blessed recently with a ton of new genetics from this community that I’m oh so excited to work with, and your passion shines through when I have them in my sacred space. I’ve been so blessed in fact, that I have a backlog of new genetics I’ve stocked up on for the past couple months. I was in a bit of a lull prepping for the move and everything, but I can say for certain I am back to doing what I truly LOVE. The future is bright my friends and this is only the beginning!
I now have a dedicated meditation/zen zone setup right where the magic happens. This might sound all hippie dippy woo-woo to some of you, but mushrooms are a lot like people in the way they absorb energy. I play music for them, take deep, intentional breaths from the heart when in their presence, and care for them like the loves ones they are. From spore to harvest, this really does make a difference, and I know you’ll be able to tell as well. Everything doesn’t happen at once…I’m being patient with myself and the overall progress toward my vision, but every single day, I have noticeable and measurable improvements to the setup and flow over here. Over the next few months, we’ll see a lot of new additions to the shop, some loooong overdue website improvements, and basically a better experience from start to finish for everyone involved.
Speaking of newly shared genetics and having everyone be a part of this fantastic giggery…I love to give credit to everyone who has a hand in what’s going on here. I assume that most of the genetics that come to me are to be shared with the community unless otherwise stated. I do occasionally have some that are stated to be just between the giver and I, and that’s how they remain. My appreciation for those runs deep and I hold them close in my heart. But I don’t typically tag anyone on announcements or in the shop unless it’s a variety that they discovered or created, such as @BrogueOne’s “Snowblower” (albino Timbit iso), or @ItsMe’s Evangeline (Enigma type from Acadian Coast), for example. If I’m so graciously passed some genetics that are already in circulation, I haven’t been mentioning the giver, though I 100% would and will if they want to/are comfortable with getting the credit for such an assist. Most of these new genetics came from the MW collective in one way or another, and I don’t want anyone to feel unappreciated or like I’m taking the credit for them. As the broken record plays, none of this would be happening if it wasn’t for you guys and gals.
I’m super excited, as are many of you, to announce the limited return of the BLACK BOX this week for a Halloween treat! The BB typically only shows itself during certain holidays and is not always in stock. I usually like to add some mushroom themed decor/trinkets and the like to make it even more special, and that will be the case around Christmas time, but I haven’t had much time to seek out those extras while trying to get the new spot in order, so these will be strictly genetics, supplies and helpful tools this week.
The Black Box is a custom “grab bag” of sorts, taylored to your needs in the hobby. If you do grab one in the shop, make sure you add a note at checkout, letting me know your skill level in the hobby (on a scale from 1-5) and what all you’re into these days! You can share as little or as much as you’d like to help me pick out what would be perfect to catapult you to the next level or give you what you’ve been searching for. For example, you might say “I’m a beginner, maybe a 1-2 experience wise. I’d love to get into making my own agar at some point, my favorite grain is milo, love the weird and funky varieties, and I make my own substrate, so we’re good on that!” and I’ll take care of the rest. Because you’re putting all your decision making paralysis on me with this one, please allow up to 3 days to ship your Black Box. It’s much easier to check items off a list when packing an order, but given a blank slate, sometimes things take a little longer to put together. It’s worth it.
I also *planned* on adding 1lb grain bags to the shop this week, but realized I’m running low on the 4T unicorn bags at the moment. I’d rather not have an insane backlog of bags to make and ship in case it’s a popular item, and with my refill not in hand yet with wicked shipping delays, I’m pushing it to next week with the rest of the November additions.
One last blurb: I’ve gotten back into the habit of creating daily lists of BLESSINGS, and I highly recommend you do something similar, even if only stored mentally. Quite literally anything or anyone I appreciate throughout the day goes onto the list. Could be a nice tree I saw on a walk, a cool stranger I came across, or just anything that comes to mind. Pretty soon, you’ll notice you’re looking for things to add to this list, and your mind is only searching for the good out there. Times are WILD right now. It’s easy to see and focus on the conflict and what’s wrong in the world, but this exercize will train your mind to see the infinite beauty in our reality and cherish it. The world is too magnificent and life is too short to be caught up in all the drama and nonsense bogging you down. Feel and harness the love that is everywhere and spread it far and wide!
I love you so so mush!!! Thank you all for being there for me through all the ups and downs and sideways pivots this life throws me. I wouldn’t have it any other way <3
Very excited to start back on our guest write up for the Wednesday posts again! @BingoSmoke started the “Roll your own” giveaway, where a new community member shares their thoughts on the page and chooses a giveaway for that week. The giveaway is paid for by @BingoSmoke, but chosen by the writer. This week’s guest is our very own @PsiFractal, choosing a 5lb All-In-One bag and B+ syringe as the give, because that’s where it all started for him. And now a word from my good friend @PsiFractal (apologies on the formatting my brotha):
Fair Doug
or: how a kid who couldn’t stop asking questions ended up in the mushroom world
for Cacy, 1997–2014, who never learned to tie his shoes
I’ve never been casually interested in anything. If something catches me, I fall in until I hit
the bottom of it. So when I finally turned that attention on my own head, it was always
going to go this way.
THE QUESTIONS NOBODY ANSWERED
I was in second grade when my uncle killed himself. Nobody could explain it to a
seven-year-old. After that, “I’ll just kill myself” became what came out of my mouth
whenever I was upset. It wasn’t a plan. It was just the biggest phrase I had. My parents
were good people who tried doctors, meds, and punishment on a kid they couldn’t figure
out. Nothing worked. There was never a “before” the depression. I just assumed this was
what being alive felt like.
On January 15, 2014, when I was 17, my best friend Cacy had a seizure in his sleep and
never woke up. I found out over the intercom in second period.
He never learned to tie his shoes. He could have. He was just too busy living all the way to
the edges. My favorite memory of him: I set him up with a girl I liked myself. They dated
for the last nine months of his life, and I’ve never regretted it.
Everyone said he’s in a better place. To a kid who needs to know how things work, that’s
the shape of an answer with nothing inside it. The question got filed away in a mind that
doesn’t tolerate unanswered questions.
THE CHASE
I’m the youngest of six, and I claimed “black sheep” before anyone could hand it to me. I
started nicotine at 12, and after that it was whatever lever was in reach. I called it “I get
bored.” What it actually was: self-medicating a mood disorder nobody had named. Most
therapy made me feel worse, so I stopped going. That’s a sentence with two halves, and I
only ever listened to the first one.
2022
I was drunk, and I don’t remember it. What put me in the hospital was alcohol poisoning
and an overdose of Lexapro, one of the same SSRIs the gene test would later show was
never working for me. It left me with pericarditis, an inflammation of the lining around the
heart.
What I do remember is the belief underneath it: nobody loves me. Ashley is only here out
of convenience. That wasn’t a mood. It felt as solid to me as the floor.
The thing I was most certain about
was the thing I was most wrong about.
My first memory afterward is laughing. I’d typed “fair doug” instead of “fair enough,” and
it became a permanent inside joke. Not a white light. A typo.
Ashley was there all five days I was in the hospital. The woman I was certain stayed out of
convenience did not leave.
On day four they ran an MRI. On day five the doctor came in and said, “Kid, I don’t know
what happened, but you’re getting back to normal. You have someone to thank.”
I’ve carried that sentence ever since. In the years since, with the help of the medicines,
I’ve been exploring my spirituality, and I finally consider myself a believer. I’d wanted to
be one my whole life. I just couldn’t get there by being told to.
THE PRINTOUT
In a 30-day program, they ran a routine genetic test. It showed that basically every SSRI
I’d ever been prescribed was either useless for me or making things worse. For twenty
years I’d been labeled “treatment-resistant,” when really nobody had checked. I didn’t feel
vindicated. I felt disappointed.
They put me on new meds, and I felt better almost immediately. Not happy. Grounded.
The bipolar diagnosis landed as an explanation, not a sentence.
Then something cracked open. If the black wall I’d lived behind my whole life could be
moved by how my body processes a molecule, then it was never the truth about existence.
My despair felt like information about the universe. It turned out to be information about
my enzymes.
That means “me” is more adjustable, and frankly more interesting, than anyone ever told
me. And the question from second period came back with teeth: What is this thing? Can I
get outside it and look?
SO I WENT LOOKING
I’d done mushrooms once at 20, just for fun. In 2022 I came back to them with a different
purpose.
The first trip that really counted was tea with my wife on our porch, watching the rain.
Afterward we played Skyrim. That’s the whole trip, and it was one of the best days of my
life. It wasn’t even trippy. My body felt heavy and my mind felt sober, like the same
machine was running a different operating system.
And of course I couldn’t just take the mushroom. I had to understand it. That’s how a guy
with questions about consciousness ended up deep in mycology. Plenty of my attempts
have failed spectacularly. But the reason I stay isn’t the results. It’s having something to
look forward to and something to take care of. There’s a moment when the mycelium
starts spreading, fuzzy and white like frost in a time-lapse, and it looks whimsical. That
moment does more for me than most of the therapy I’ve paid for.
THE TEACHER TRIP
I took a big dose in the backyard with Glass Animals playing, and I went in with an actual
question: what am I supposed to do with my life? I found my old high school poetry and
fell straight down a hole. Cacy’s era. Seventeen years old, with everything still ahead of
him.
I came out certain I was meant to be a teacher. So I quit my job and started studying for
the certification exam.
Reader, that did not work.
The trip wasn’t wrong. I really do need to explain things to people and watch them get it.
But the mushroom gives you a raw signal and no instructions for what to do with it.
Eventually I built teaching into the work I already do. Same drive, sane execution. It just
cost me a job to figure that out.
That’s the gap I’ve finally started closing. I recently began integration therapy with a
guide, and he’s helped me actually understand what I’m bringing back from these trips.
Instead of a raw signal I implement like a lunatic, I come back with something tangible I
can use. It’s the engineering I was always missing.
And honestly, the timing means a lot. My son arrives in April. It feels good to have started
getting my shit together, so to speak, before he gets here. I want him to get the grounded
version of me. The one who’s still working on it, but working on it on purpose.
THE HONEST LEDGER
What changed: I spazz out less. My episodes are shorter and less frequent. Ashley would
confirm both.
What didn’t: I still crash, for no reason. No trip fixed that, and I’m suspicious of anyone
who says one did.
Where I cross the line: I dose because I’m bored, and I call escape “exploration.” When I
dose after a bad day, what comes back is anger, extra and unearned. I know the rule. I
break the rule.
Harm reduction: I’d tell a 17-year-old to get a gene test and find a sitter. For years I
never took that advice myself. Working with a guide is the first time I’ve actually started
to, and it shows.
Is this just a smart guy building a philosophy to justify getting high? Think what you want.
I’m doing alright for the first time in my life. I’ll take the trade.
WHAT I’VE GOT
I’m 29. I have a house, a wife, a son on the way, two broken little cats, cars I built with my
own hands, no nicotine, and a standing appointment to get punched in the face by people I
like. Some days I’m still a Debby Downer. That’s the weather, not the climate, and it took
me twenty-eight years to learn the difference.
I also have this place. When I first found this Discord, I came for spores. I stayed for the
people. Some of you have genuinely changed how I see certain parts of life, usually
without even knowing you were doing it, and along the way I’ve made some awesome
friends. For a guy who spent most of his life feeling like he didn’t have a seat at the table,
that’s not a small thing. Thank you.
I never found out where Cacy went. But I stopped needing the answer to be a place. He’s
in the way I do things. He’s in the fact that I never learned to slow down either.
If you’re reading this at 3am because you saw “suicide attempt” in a mushroom post and
needed to know how it ends: it passes. Then it comes back. Then it passes again. The good
stretches are worth the whole price. Go get the gene test.
And if tonight is one of the hard ones, call or text 988 (in the US). A real person picks up.
If you can’t find the love in life you expected,
you’re probably the one who is that love, for somebody else.
Fair doug.
— Andy
So powerful, brother. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us! We love you, man.
Anything you can’t say ‘thank you’ for is your baggage. Anything you say ‘thank you’ for is your fuel
He who is not contented with what he has, would not be contented with what he would like to have. -Socrates
Happiness is your current situation minus expectations.
Your worst enemy cannot hurt you as much as your own unguided thoughts -Buddha
Rather than being your thoughts and emotions, be the awareness behind them -Eckhart Tolle
Truth waits for eyes unclouded by longing. -Tao Te Ching
When one eye is fixed on your destination, there is only on eye left to find the way. -Joe Hyams
If it is meant for you, it won’t miss you. -My friend, Alex and probably others
UPDATES:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY @ForkliftFixer!!! Thursday (tomorrow 10/29) is the man’s birthday, so give him a nice loving shout to celebrate his special day! ForkliftFixer has quickly become an amazing member of the MW collective and a very close friend of mine in the community. He always spreads the love, is patient and understanding, entirely selfless, and we are all blessed to have him on our side. He even donated dice rolls for giveaways all month long (check the gives on Discord tonight to enter for free)! Love you, man!
Big shout out to @Devilsinmydetails for paying it forward/donating a BLACK BOX he recently won! Check the Discord gives around 6pm tonight to have a shot at it!
Huge shout out to mr. @Psilly_Goose and @Sporecore for coming up with a fun game of “tag” going forward on Wednesdays! Hit the #giveaways channel on Discord, where you can *react* to the “Tag” game to toss your name in the hat for a $10 roll in the mycosino and “pay it forward” by continuing the tradition the following week by gifting a roll to another participating member. IF YOU “SIGN UP” AND HAPPEN TO BE TAGGED: Go to the MW shop and place an order for a $10 Dice Roll. This will allow me to send you what you won with your roll, and “pay it forward” so you can then choose someone next Wyco Wednesday to tag. Anyone that signs up next WW is available to tag, and “sign ups” begin around 5pm CST on that Wednesday in the #giveaways channel. TAG! You’re awesome.
With the community growing as it has recently, I wanted to mention that if you have an issue with any member being out of line, offensive, solicitating, or any cause for concern at all, please reach out to myself or a member of our stellar mod squad and we will take corrective action. We care greatly about the preservation of this wonderful community and will do everything we can to keep it that way. If anyone or anything rubs you the wrong way, @millywyco., @UnderdogArtisan, @Smushem, @LeviathansKeeper and @noir are the go-to’s for reporting any kind of nonsense.
Quick note about giveaways on Discord: I love to accommodate anyone and everyone with these giveaways, but due to shipping cost and unreliability of getting through customs, these are currently for US addresses only. A 1lb box runs around $30 for shipping alone…5lb can be around $100, and some of these gives are heavier than that, running $200+ overseas, with high potential of getting stuck in customs and never actually arriving. If an international myconaut wins one of these, I’d be happy to send some prints or swabs your way…pretty much anything that can fit in a standard envelope and not have to pass through customs screening. Thanks for understanding!
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All Orders placed after 5pm on 10/28 will receive a free “Unlisted” isolated spore syringe with their order! This one will be available in the shop next week with the new November adds, but all orders get it early this week!
Order numbers ending in “1” on 10/28 will grab a $20 store credit with their order!
Order numbers ending in “2” on 10/28 will score a “Kinky Pack” of cubensis syringes with their order!
Order numbers ending in “8” on 10/28 will receive a 2lb bag of milo/millet mixed grains with their order!
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Bucket pulls coming ~7pm!!!
I pulled order numbers out of the Bucket of Destiny to win some treasures aaaand… CONGRATS ORDER xxxxx on winning 3 NEW cubensis spore syringes!
Next up, I pulled ORDER xxxxx on winning 3 isolated cubensis syringes!
And finally, I kept pulling numbers until one of em hit the jackpot spin on the slot machine….CONGRATS ORDER xxxxx! Feel free to pick any item in stock in the shop, excluding the “Black Box”, subscription plans and the 4-pack of AIO bags
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Random question nonsense for dice rolls! 1 prize per person, please! Reply to the questions below in the #mycosino channel on Discord! Keeping these going till 7pm CST, then choosing winners!
Show off your favorite light! (could be a lamp, laser, sign, etc) For 3 random cubensis syringes
Whoever has won the most giveaways since joining the Discord gets to give this prize to the person of their choosing For a $25 genetics roll (need not put in work to go back and tally the actual number of wins, just bicker amongst yourselves and settle on an agreed luckiest member)
Story time! Tell us either your fun plans for this Halloween, or your most memorable past Halloween! Bonus points for showing off a creative costume, past or present For a $25 genetics roll + 2 “unlisted” syringes
Welcome to the mycosino! In case you’re new here, this is a fun way of scoring some awesome genetics, supplies and swag without having to choose! Let the dice/universe decide for you! I roll an 8-sided magical mushroom die live on Discord to show what you’ve won. **Add a note at checkout with your name on Discord if you’re in there so I can properly tag you!**
ON WEDNESDAYS ONLY, we’re continuing the ROLL 3, PICK 2 promo for the dice roll shenanigans. Buy 2 rolls of the same tier and get 3 separate rolls where you can pick your top two prizes! Also continuing the LUCKY NUMBER upgrade. Today’s number (October 28th) is 8! If you roll an 8 on your first roll, you’ll receive that prize and get a re-roll for an additional prize! The bonus JACKPOT SPIN (a literal spin of a mini slot machine) will be spun on ALL rolls Wednesdays only, and on the supplies roll all other days. If you win the jackpot spin, you can choose any item in the shop (excluding the “lifer” pack, the black box, 4-pack of AIOs, and subscription plans) as a reward!
- Milly’s Favorite Cubensis Syringes
- (4) Unlisted Syringes
- Kinky Pack
- (3) Penis Envy Varieties
- Pale Pack
- (5) Random Cubensis Spore Syringes
- Big Boy Pack
- (4) Random Swab Packs
- (10) 1lb Grain Bags
- (4) 5lb AIO Bags
- (30) 60mm & (20) 90mm Agar Plates
- Pack-o-Sub (5lb CVG, 5lb High Nute, 3lb Mulch, 3lb Casing)
- (3) 2lb Grain Bags & (3) 3lb CVG Bags
- (6) 3lb AIO Bags
- BLACK BOX
- (2) 5lb AIO Bags & (20) Agar Plates
ALL orders from 10/28-11/4 will be entered to win a free MYSTERY PRIZE from the shop! I’m going to put all order numbers on cards and draw a few from a bucket on the next Wyco Wednesday October 28th to be announced on the next post. Drawing will be posted as a video clip on Discord just like the dice rolls!
The Discord squad patiently awaits your arrival! It is THE homie hangout at this point. All love, all beautiful beings vibin’ out, sharing success stories, learning from more experienced myconauts and always keeping it light and positive. Plus we have giveaways of all kinds pretty frequently!
Use this GIVEAWAY DONATION to send a contribution specifically for giveaways! If you’d like it to be used for a specific item or bundle, just add a note at checkout to let me know what it is to be used for, or leave it up to me and I’ll come up with something fun. Either way, add your Discord name to the notes so we know who to thank! YOU ARE APPRECIATED MORE THAN YOU KNOW!!!
Mention your order number if you leave a review on the subreddit or send a screenshot (email or Discord) of a shout out elsewhere and I’ll hook you up in the most exquisite way on the next one (just add a note to your order to remind me)! Any shout outs are appreciated and mentions on other forums and things like that really help out more than you know <3 This dude is old school, does no marketing and has no social life media. Your word of mouth is why I am still around. Keep plugging=keeping me off socials=keeping me sane. You guys go harder than Malte Martin
To vent, talk it out, ask for help or just have someone to listen to the good bad and ugly, hit the inbox at millywycomushlove@gmail.com or join the Discord and send me a chat. I’m ALWAYS here for you friend.
!!COUPON CODES!!
5PACK – 5 Cubensis Spore Syringes for $30
Smell ya next WW on November 4th at 5pm CST! Spore on my friends! I love you all so mush!!
Check the Archives! WW has been a thing for over 400 Wednesdays now! If you’re new here, WELCOME! And if you’re a dear elder spore wizard, I do appreciate the support all along this journey! Mush Love <3